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Post by Tomas Wingly on Jun 19, 2007 11:05:58 GMT -5
"Oh um.." he snapped back to reality to see her caring eyes again his father had been right he'd cursed himself. "I'm fine." The key to power was walls mental walls to block out every bit of feeling. Caring people don't rule the world. "Happens all the time" he said refusing to acknowledge the fact that he wanted her to hold him.
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Post by chal on Jun 19, 2007 11:22:52 GMT -5
Sophia looked at him with sad eyes and leaned in her face slowly towards him as if about to kiss him. Her face went past his though as she gave him a soft kind of long hug.
"I'm sorry." She whispered in his ear as her cheeks got red but she brushed it off she was trying to comfort him and her shyness wasn't about to stop her.
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Post by Tomas Wingly on Jun 19, 2007 16:44:01 GMT -5
"It's OK. Nothing you can change." He got up to walk away reluctantly it just hurt to much to know he could never be admired by him as he did her. One day she might but till now he'd have to deal with it. "And hey," he said, practically in a whisper. "Even when it seems like you have no one...there's always me." He started walking away but soon leaned on a tree not to far away still within sight. There he started to sob quietly....he'd forgotten his heart.
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Post by chal on Jun 19, 2007 18:28:38 GMT -5
Sophia's eyes watched as he left. She got up and ran over to him then hugged him tightly from behind.
"NO!" she shrieked. "Don't say that. Someone else can always help. I know I can help...," her voice turned into a whisper, "just tell me how. I'll do it. I promise." Her eyes filled with tears as she pondered whether she should do something she was thinking or not.
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Post by Tomas Wingly on Jun 19, 2007 20:02:57 GMT -5
"All I ever look for is something to hold onto..." He was trying not to shout from his sadness. "When I'm not in school I'm a foster child bounced from home to home. No scratch that there never home. Some are good some are bad but one thing is always the same. Nothing is real. You have nothing to hold onto in the system. Just when you think you can settle down and make roots you're moving again and everything is different. When I came here I thought things would be different but then i realized soon enough I'll be getting kicked back out when the terms over. All my life I've never had someone to hold onto someone who would still be there the next morning. So I've learned not to get attached but when I do I pour my heart into them. Like I did with you...I got to attached and then I realized I was wrong I thought there was something but there's not at least well it's not mutual...." Tomas looked away he'd made her cry. Now he felt guilty. "I guess I'm just a tad bit too clingy.
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Post by chal on Jun 20, 2007 0:59:09 GMT -5
Sophia shook her head violently. She dropped to her knees. In an attempt to stop crying she started to reply to him. She hugged herself tightly trying to comfort her crying. Then she randomly broke into laughter among her crying.
"You think I had someone to hold on to in my time of need?" She kept laughing and crying. "You think I love me life? That is freaking hysterical." She calmed down her crying and laughed then snapped at him not meaning to. "NO! I hate my life! I've never had anyone to hold on to either. Isabella was there kind of. She never really talked much about things so she wasn't help at all. She is small minded. She is well at hiding it yeah but she isn't good to have a deep conversation with. Sometimes she is sometimes she isn't. She mostly isn't though. When she is though it almost seems like she could cure cancer or something." She chuckled faintly among her crying. She looked up at Tomas despite the fact his back was turned and had pain and frustration in her gaze. "I'd give anything to be in foster care honestly. Then I could always keep to myself and since I don't get attached to people easily I could move away from them. I hate my parents. They beat me when they found out I was a witch. They were afraid since I wasn't like them. It went on for two years. You think I could hold on to them? You think I could talk to them? I would cry myself to sleep every night and hoped and prayed to god that I would get taken away from them. I never had bruises so I couldn't go to child services. So you tell me. Could I hold on to someone? Could I create a bond with people who beat me? Even before they treated me differently form my siblings. They knew somehow that I was different." She was blushing like crazy since she just told an almost complete stranger about her past. "And how do you know if I like you or not? You are just assuming I don't." Her cheeks were bright red as she spoke of it.
Her crying started to get hushed but it was still noticeably there. She sighed then looked down at a blade of grass.
"I'm sorry." She whispered. "I didn't mean to snap." she hung her head as if in shame still staring at the same blade of grass.
What am I doing? I should just leave. He obviously doesn't want to talk to me. I'm useless. I'm pathetic. Why did I tell him my past? Why am I always thinking about him? What is going on? Her thoughts started to smother her mind and she started to cry harder.
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Post by Tomas Wingly on Jun 20, 2007 1:41:09 GMT -5
"I-I I'm sorry...I didn't mean to pry. As for the liking me thing i just assumed cause you never showed any signs i mean we kissed and no matter how close i put myself to you you kind of moved away...ugh" He fell to the ground. "Your better off just leaving the more i try and make you like me the more i hurt you anyway."
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Post by chal on Jun 20, 2007 1:49:50 GMT -5
Sophia just started laughing again among her crying.
"It's ok you didn't pry. I kind of just spoke my thoughts aloud. But you shouldn't think you're the only one who feels that way upon things. I've had a rough childhood and you apparently did too. So I can relate. Sort of. The stories are different yeah but that doesn't mean we didn't feel somewhat the same." she was in a whisper almost. "And yeah I always moved away. What do you expect me to do? I still don't know if I like you." She chuckled to herself and thought that she did know the answer now. "I'm also extremely shy. I've never done this before. I don't know what to do or say or how to act. I've never been in a relationship. You have to remember that. I'm new to all this and on top of that I'm super shy." She shook her head in shame and cried more.
She tried to stand up but her attempt failed as she fell to her knees again. She felt really weak.
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Post by Tomas Wingly on Jun 20, 2007 1:55:21 GMT -5
"Wait what do you mean by been in a relationship your not in one now are you?" Tomas thought he may have picked up on a small glint of hope. "Thank you for being there Sophia I apreciate it." Tomas raised his wand to show her how he felt he pointed towards the ground and whispered "Avis" soon a bright red orange pheonix rose from a cloud of flames holding its elegant head high glancing at Sophia.
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Post by chal on Jun 20, 2007 1:59:59 GMT -5
She shook her head violently. No but I want to be in one with you. She thoguht as she stared at the Phoenix. Tears kept falling down and she couldn't stop them. She decided to let them run their toll though.
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Post by Tomas Wingly on Jun 20, 2007 2:05:36 GMT -5
((It was a Phoenix smart one lmao))
Tomas looked at her crying this question had been bugging him for the longest time. "Why is it that every time i mention the fact that i like you, you cry?"
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Post by chal on Jun 20, 2007 2:13:01 GMT -5
"I'm not crying because you like me. I'm crying from when you said nothing can change how you felt. I knew I should try and I started crying because I wanted to help so badly. Then I started to rant about my past and now they wont stop." She managed to say all that as she cried.
She just stared at the Phoenix and reached her hand out to pet it. It didn't snap and her so she began to pet it lightly. She just sighed and she still had her head hung in shame. I guess it pains me to hear you say that since I can't tell you I like you. She pondered the thought and wondered why she couldn't tell him that since that was the most important part of the truth she left out.
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Post by Tomas Wingly on Jun 20, 2007 2:16:46 GMT -5
"It's OK don't worry about it I can wait. If that's what I have to do I'll wait." The truth is no matter how much it hurt he'd always go to her no matter how much time had passed he'd always take the time to at least consider going to her.
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Post by chal on Jun 20, 2007 2:23:07 GMT -5
Sophia nodded slightly then kept crying harder and harder. She wanted him to hold her and tell her it would be ok but she didn't say anything or gesture anything either. If he would do it he should do it on his own. Plus she was just really happy there was someone willing to hold her despite the fact she was crying.
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Post by Tomas Wingly on Jun 20, 2007 2:26:16 GMT -5
"Look I won't beg for the sake of making things ackward but if you want a shoulder to cry on I'm right here..." e held out his arms offering a safe haven from all forms of evil.
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